This isn't quite the moment but it's pretty close...... I looked out of the kitchen window early on Sunday morning and saw Noah and Thom on the trampoline, laughing together, and felt suddenly very external to their relationship. Iknow it's been happening subtley since Thom was born - the little smiles, the head-strokings, the looking around the room for each other, the hidey-boo, the belly-laughs, and more recently, the wrestling and games of 'fighting ball' (a football game devised by Eve and Noah which mainly seems to involve falling over on the grass and rolling around squealing).
And I have watched the relationship between Eve and Noah grow strong and sure (albeit littered with dispute) over the past three years.
But it caught me unawares to suddenly feel so utterly surplus to reqirements. No one was asking for a cuddle, or a biscuit; no one was needing toilet help or a nose wipe. So I just watched my boys, completely happy in each other's company, and fleetingly daydreamed about the men they will grow into and the relationship they will have as brothers.
So, the photo's not so great - and has missed the moment - but it's recorded mine as their mum, and the slightly painful pride and heart-swelling I felt.
Aw, I know what you mean, but don't forget, you have played a massive role in the relationship that your children have with each other. You've prompted them to be kind and fair with each other and respectful and the end result is children who are enjoying each others company and will grow up to have happy memories of their childhood together. Time to sit back, feel very proud of yourself and take the opportunity to watch them play with a cup of tea and a comfy chair! xxxx
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